Happiness

I am happy today. Really, really happy. Happy like I haven't felt in a while (at least not sober, ha ha).

It's a gorgeous gorgeous day. I actually got in the lake and enjoyed the feeling of cool water surrounding me, and watching the sun get higher in the sky as I swam. I got my swim done with no internal whining.


I don't want to be too optimistic, but I feel back on track. I feel like the unhappiness I had been feeling for the last few months has lifted. I feel peaceful, but energetic.

I'm very close to proper eating this week - every day I've been doing a little bit better. I've swum, I've biked, and I've run this week, and I'm feeling motivated to get the rest of my workouts done. My job is going fairly well; I'm incredibly busy (I worked 12 hours yesterday, yuck!) but the work I'm doing is interesting.

Every day my kids come home from camp with new things to tell me. Here's a conversation I had with Camille the day before yesterday:

"How was acting camp, Camille?"

"Good, there's a boy who wants to KISS me!" (Remember, readers - Camille is four!)

"Oh really, what's his name?" I asked.

"I don't know. I can't remember."

"Well, we don't kiss boys, Camille. If he tries to kiss you, just say "No thank you, I don't kiss boys."

She rolled her eyes (my bad bad habit rubbing off on her). "But I kiss Daddy! He's a boy!"

"Daddy is special."

"But I kiss Papa!" she retorted.

"Family members are special. You can't kiss boys who aren't in your family."

"How about this: I will tell him he can kiss me when I'm six."

So at this, I'm about to die from keeping my laughter in. "No. You can kiss boys when you're married."

And then Gabriel chimes in with, "No, she'll be an adult when she's 18. She can kiss boys then."

Thanks, kid.

And John. Today Aleks saw John for the first time in months, and she was just gushing about how good he looks. I forgot already - when he lost weight, his face totally changed, and she's right: he's adorable. And more importantly, our relationship is improving - dramatically.

Here's hoping for continued happiness. (And more friends on Facebook.)